For the past few weeks, I’ve been trying to rediscover my love for something that literally flows through my heart and mind constantly. For years I’ve played in groups all around doing what I love–music. In high school I completely fell in love with music, and taught myself multiple instruments. That’s actually were my passion for writing came from!
However, when you do something for so long it is easy to let it become routine. So, to return to the beginning and ignite this passion I have for this area of my life, I tried to recreate moments that were intimate and sincere in hopes that I’d find what it was that draws me to do what I love. I found very quickly that it’s very difficult to recreate sincerity…because it’s no longer sincere when you do that! Go figure. I have spent the past few months trying to find what was lost and I almost decided to totally give up…until today.
Today (if you follow my twitter) you would have noticed I tweeted something about finding a music store outside of my hotel room. It said, “Tons of hotels here, and magically I get the one with the music store directly across the street. Thank you Lord!” My love for music naturally got me to walk over and check it out! So I walked in and sat down at a Yamaha CVP-601 piano and just…played. That’s it. Played whatever I felt in my heart. I probably played for two minutes, tops. But in those minutes of listening to my heart…something clicked. I had rediscovered what was inside of it.
You see, I didn’t lose what drove my love for music. It was still inside of me all along. What really needed to be adjusted was my perspective. In sitting, waiting, and hearing my heart out, today I was able to find what I was missing.
Whatever area in your life you are waiting to be revived, know that whether it’s “half empty”, or “half full” at the end of the day–it’s still a glass waiting to be filled.